What I've been up to

I'm not too sure where to start - it feels as though everything and yet nothing has changed and I'm feeling really positive and excited.

I'm sewing - anything and everything. Sewing doesn't feel like work - it's just big fun. I've started looking at my clothes and modifying them - taking things in, adding ribbon etc. I'm having so much fun it's unreal. It's a huge shift for me to let go of the idea of doing admin and just following the energy.

As we were travelling to our holiday last week I made a felt camera pouch with diamante and beads on it. While I was there I took up some cropped trousers and they are now shorts. I took a special notebook with me and I now have loads of ideas written down for more things to tinker with such as adding darts and a belt to my shapeless winter coat. While I was away I found a book on body shapes and how to dress them :)

I'd love to say that being near the ocean really helped to change things for me but I think that that was already under way. I woke up early most days and I went for a walk on the beach which is two miles long at low tide. Some days I was out there at 5.30. I took my trainers and ran/walked along the beach one morning. It's been a long-held dream of mine to run along a beach. And the earlier I got up the more often it was my own beach too! 

In the mornings we pottered about or went into the small nearby town. I found 4 sewing shops and heaps of material in charity shops etc. Every afternoon we went body-boarding for a couple of hours. It was sublime. Some days the waves were flat and others they were quite impressive (and tiring!) I just adore that translucent aquamarine colour as the waves start to crest. One afternoon the waves weren't up to much and I spent ages just bobbing about leaning on my board watching the gold of the sun drip onto the ripples. I'd call that meditation!

The exercise I had on holiday has really reminded me how much my body likes to move. And my food needs a revamp. It's boring and monotonous so I'm going to refocus and play with that too.

I've also started a new blog to share my sewing adventures - you can find it at:

 http://sewselena.blogspot.com/

It feels good to be connected again!

Gifts

I've been feeling as though I have a foot in two worlds - the world that I know and that is 'comfortable' and the world of possibilities, uncertainty and hope. 

I have been contemplating making the leap (ok, slow amble) over to the second world for a while now.  What's stopping me?  Well, that would be me LOL!  Where I am is 'certain' - I know how to live this life but I want more and the hope and possiblities keep beckoning me. 

One of the reasons I am where I am is down to money but I had an insight this morning while bumbling about in my purse for some change to pay for a drink for myself and my daughter.  These insights always seem to pop up when least expected! 

Anyway, it occurred to me that every one of us is blessed with a specialness that only we possess and that our gifts and talents are there to support us.  Duh!!  Why had I not thought of that before? 

So I may just think a bit more seriously about sewing - anyone need any curtains altering or a dress made? <grin>

Making it happen

In January I wrote down a list of a dozen dreams that I wanted to make happen by the end of this year. 

One was to go to Maine again (when I didn't know how I was going to do that) - check, already done that.  Another was to find a 12-step face to face meeting that I was happy with - done that too.

In fact, there are 5 things that have already been ticked off the list.  And there are another 2 that I am actively working on right now.

Now, why am I able to focus on these dreams and make them happen? 

Outrageously I decided to email the list of dreams to myself.  That way I am constantly reminded of what I want to focus on.  When I have done something on the list I don't delete it, I move it to a new 'done' section at the bottom of the email.  And then I email the revised list once a week.

I'm having a blast!!